I have been visiting Mael’s new residence located on one of the busiest streets of New York. He has been known to be quite a hermit in the past, so I must question why he would suddenly choose such a busy and overpopulated city to reside in. It has come to my attention that he has been acting most peculiar as of late. Mael has been known for his short and vile temper for centuries. He has often had disagreements over the centuries with the ancient Immortal known as Marius. More recently however this anger has come close to rage, inflamed by the loss of his beloved Jesse when Marius claimed her for his own. I am saddened by the sorrow my dear friend harbors for Marius. My heart aches for Mael’s loss, though I cannot condone his anger towards the two.
I actually dreaded the invitation to Armand’s penthouse here in this city for the holidays, only to be shocked and perhaps even proud of Mael’s behavior when we arrived. Not one venomous word seeped from his lips to Marius as I had expected. Instead he was slightly social and even semi-friendly. His actions alone made my heart soar. I had thought he had seen the light in his world of darkness.
Now, I fear I was wrong. Though I am delighted Mael and I are friends again, I cannot keep myself from worrying. The change in him is too abrupt and for what reason? What would cause him to have a change of heart? I sometimes wonder if his being charming at times is an act to please me? I have caught him alone many a night recently, when he does not know that I watch, scowling down at the computer and looking angry. He has gone into fits of rage, flinging his office decor about the room, which leaves the room in disarray from scattered folders and shredded files. I have said nothing to him of this. I wonder if Armand spoke some truth, when he told me recently that I should be apprehensive of Mael?
I have noticed Mael’s absence quite a few nights this past week. I have seen him get into a sleek black vehicle and rush off to a destination unknown to me. Those nights he does not return, most times he is gone for two nights at a time. When he is not present I have found strange receipts in his office, where I now type this entry on my laptop. Just last night, I walked in on him as he was having a rather hushed phone call, only for it to end abruptly and see him hurl the phone across the room. When he realized I had been standing in the doorway he tried to reassure me that it was merely an argument with his investors. Something in his eyes told me his words were far from the truth. I truly wish to believe he has returned to me and all will be fine. Though doubt rules my heart as my time here with him continues.My mood:  worried |
From the deepest shadows I watch her as she roams, as she hunts. Once again she had nearly managed to elude me, such a wild creature this one. There is a kind of contained ferocity surrounding her at all times, I find myself unable to tear my eyes away. What is it that draws us to one another? Is it rooted in sight, sound... or is it that deep inside we recognize a piece of ourselves in a wholly separate being?
Weeks have passed and the reason for staying here has long past, or has it? Cairo has always held memories, masked in shadow. Old recollections, ancient even, seem to catch me unawares and I almost long for the time when I had no want or need to look into my past. Yet I stay here, weeks after Lestat’s most recent adventure; let Marius lecture him and the others “deal” with it all, as they say, I have no interest.
With each new dawn I lie down in a well hidden cellar, confused memories, old and new, swirling through my mind as the weight of the rising sun pulls me into even more disturbing dreams. Always her face is the last and the first I see as I follow the suns cycle, as we all must. So very strange to me that I would return to this place to remember such things from my past and to find another of the blood that captures my attention so.
At the Sphinx, during our quest for Lestat, I had seen her when no others had, recognizing her in an instant. She had not meant or wanted to be seen, that much was clear, though I knew she had come out of concern she has long been rumored to lack. I fear to reveal myself to her, to let her know just who the dark presence is that follows her. I do not wish to alarm her with these thoughts; in the dark blood she is still young and I have had over two thousand years to become accustomed to myself; I think I shall give this one a bit more time.
For now I am content to simply observe and keep a good distance. But how long can I refuse those eyes that search the darkness for her watcher... do not fear me Gabrielle. |
Stop for a moment and tell me what you see. Take a brief pause in reflection. What captures not only your wandering gaze but your imaginative mind as well?
A solitary candle burns in this room, reflecting off the walls and the shining computer screen. A single flame fighting its way through darkness... *sighs* But I would much rather know what you see, allow me to see what you see, if only through words but words are able to paint a picture all their own.My mood:  determined |
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Jul. 1st, 2005 @ 12:10 am
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*chuckles* How very interesting. |
We will be holding a forum chat to bring our wonderful reopening and party to an end. Lestat has been found, much is right in our world once more and we would love to make a few more wonderful memories before the weekend leaves us. We would like to invite you to join us here in the forum chat room at 10pm EST on Sunday, June 26th!
Though you may just be lucky to catch us lurking in the chat room around 4pm EST.
Until then darlings!My mood:  calm |
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I would love nothing more than if you all would help me to welcome both Lestat and Louis to Livejournal!
Lestat
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) lestat_eternal
Louis
louis_eternal
Jun. 25th, 2005 @ 05:18 pm
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To all of the lovely mortals of AE. Affirmations Eternal is once again open! Many new and wonderful things await you there....as well as the many surprises we immortals have in store.
Jun. 24th, 2005 @ 02:56 pm
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The nights have been warmer of late. I can enjoy the sound of the birds in the early morning, when the light is growing but my body can still tolerate it. I try to prolongate the moment when I realize I can't take it much longer and must resort to darker places. My age allows me to behold the very first glimpses of the light, though if I push it too far, my eyes burn. How I wish I could remember the feel of the sun's touch on my skin, how I wish I knew what it was like to watch the sunrise completely. I know in my mortal years I had these priceless gifts. They are however forever lost to me now. I must watch the sunrise on a screen not to get hurt by it. My question to you all, dearest mortal -and immortal- friends: describe to me a sunrise or sunset you experienced that has been inscribed into your memory for all time. Let me partake in this recollection, so that I can create one for myself.
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May. 16th, 2005 @ 05:40 am
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Quando sono sola
sogno all'orizzonte
e mancan le parole,
si lo so che non c'e luce
in una stanza quando manca il sole,
se non ci sei tu con me, con me.
Su le finestre
mostra a tutti il mio cuore
che hai accesso,
chiudi dentro me
la luce che
hai incontrato per strada.
Time to say goodbye.
Paesi che non ho mai
veduto e vissuto con te,
adesso si li vivro.
Con te partiro
su navi per mari
che, io lo so,
no, no, non esistono piu,
it's time to say goodbye.
Quando sei lontana
sogno all'orizzonte
e mancan le parole,
e io si lo so
che sei con me, con me,
tu mia luna tu sei qui con me,
mio sole tu sei qui con me,
con me, con me, con me.
Time to say goodbye.
Paesi che non ho mai
veduto e vissuto con te,
adesso si li vivro.
Con te partiro
su navi per mari
che, io lo so,
no, no, non esistono piu.
con te io li rivivro.
Con te partiro
su navi per mari
che, io lo so,
no, no, non esistono piu,
con te io li rivivro.
Con te partiro
Io con te.</centerQuando sono sola
sogno all'orizzonte
e mancan le parole,
si lo so che non c'e luce
in una stanza quando manca il sole,
se non ci sei tu con me, con me.
Su le finestre
mostra a tutti il mio cuore
che hai accesso,
chiudi dentro me
la luce che
hai incontrato per strada.
Time to say goodbye.
Paesi che non ho mai
veduto e vissuto con te,
adesso si li vivro.
Con te partiro
su navi per mari
che, io lo so,
no, no, non esistono piu,
it's time to say goodbye.
Andrea:
Quando sei lontana
sogno all'orizzonte
e mancan le parole,
e io si lo so
che sei con me, con me,
tu mia luna tu sei qui con me,
mio sole tu sei qui con me,
con me, con me, con me.
Time to say goodbye.
Paesi che non ho mai
veduto e vissuto con te,
adesso si li vivro.
Con te partiro
su navi per mari
che, io lo so,
no, no, non esistono piu.
Both:
con te io li rivivro.
Con te partiro
su navi per mari
che, io lo so,
no, no, non esistono piu,
con te io li rivivro.
Con te partiro
Io con te.
May. 14th, 2005 @ 09:07 pm
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You come from an Ancient Civilization. Egypt,
China, Rome... a piece of all the greatest
civilizations of their time can be found in
you.
Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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Apr. 20th, 2005 @ 06:13 am
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Apr. 19th, 2005 @ 05:21 am
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A very big thank you goes to crimson_beauty for creating me this divine layout. I am forever in your debt, Cat.
( My first quiz )
Apr. 18th, 2005 @ 06:49 am
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